myownbestenemy

If you want it...you can have it

2005-01-31T02:41:21Z

Feelings...ahhhh, such a touchy subject. Why do people want to know how I'm feeling? I'm not that important, nor are my random thoughts. Maybe I just lack them, but i know thats bullshit. I have them, but I dunno what they are a lot of the time. I have this problem expressing my feelings to other people. I am going to avoid it as much as possible.

I found a cool hat today. Its going to be my new fav. Its a trucked hat with a patch that says ireland and has a four leaf clover on it. I also worked today. not fun. but I digress.

Sometimes I hope people withh just assume my feelings by the way I look, but i wouldn't want to give a wrong impression. I think its best if sometimes no one knows. I keep things a secret by not telling one person everything. By doing that, this one person knows so much that if you were to fight, they know too much, which has recently become a problem. So I will continue to spread parts of my feelings over the general populus.

Adieu.

If music is the victim then so am I

2005-01-22T04:25:49Z

Another weekend at the Iacono's.....It never gets old. Kenney and Jo-anne were there. Good times were had by all. Also, My car got wrecked, for anyone who didn't know. Then there was a long jazz practice. People were messing up left and boob. I hate the trumpet players. Listen to me, i sound like a band geek. Well, work in the AM. Keep the peace like a buddist.

Say hello to my lil' friend

2004-12-13T03:54:38Z

Sunday 12/5: 2 - 7
Mon: 5 - 11
Tues: 5 - 10
Wend: rest
Thurs: 1:30 p.m. to......
Friday : 2 a.m. then 5 to 10:30
Sat: 9 - 5
Sunday 12/12: 9 - 5
Mon: 5 - 11
Tues: 5 - 10
Wend: rest
Thurs: Jazz band
Friday: 5 - 11
Sat: 9 - 5

So I wish I time to do things. I'm am so over worked. I dunno where my money goes
its always gone.

IF and THEN Statements

2004-12-08T14:26:24Z

Another Comp. Prog. update. I'm feeling very weak. Side-effects of them taking blood yesterday. No work today finally. I'm conducting the 6th grade concert tonight, very nervous. Good kids though. I need to pass psych this quarter. I hope everythign goes alright.

Tiocfaidh ar la

2004-12-05T16:51:20Z

In irish, tiocfaidh ar la means "Our day will come". Something interesting I found out reading about Sinn Fein. I have to work in a couple of hours. Not a long day at all. I'm working a concert in Lowell,mass. on thursday. Kiss 108's Jingle Ball. Its one of those concerts for like 13 and 14 year old girls that scream and such. So i'll be working right after school on thursday well into the morning on friday. I'm gonna be so tired at school.

If yo feelin like a pimp, go an brush yo shoulders off,
~Ryan~

By popular demand

2004-12-04T16:06:44Z

So many poepl want me to update. So here it is. Nothings going on. I'm queer. And boring

Another computer programming class

2004-11-12T14:27:44Z

The projector is down, so while it is being fixed, I decided to write another entry. Detention ended up just being a waste of time because we did nothing in it. Yesterday, we had the "Parade" for veterans day. good times. Went to eat later. Then off to gary's house to play video games till the night ended. back to work. see ya

Computer Progamming

2004-11-09T14:50:41Z

Been a while. I'm in comp programing right now. I'm wicked tired, no ones here because of halo 2 and other such things. Happy Christmahanakwanzakah!
Yours Truley,
Ryan

Sox-3, Cards-0

2004-10-27T03:57:40Z

Did't do my psych project, but I didn't go today so I got lucky. Tommorow I have a concert, which sucks, but its one of those things you have to do. Sox win another, and jaime sleeps though another. Her parents kept saying things, then when she was like "I heard that", they asked her what she heard and she had no idea. Pretty funny. I slept all day so theres no use in sleeping more, so instead of the project, I'm going to play ROME. Have a good one.....

Sox-2 , Cards-0

2004-10-25T03:53:44Z

Worked all day. Went over to jai's to watch the game with her folks. Wicked good time. except somone kept falling asleep. :p. And Dan(dave?), or DM is a douche. "We should put all the red sox stuff near the front. Red sox fan will buy anything when they are winning. we'll make a crap load of money."

Sox-1, Cards-0

2004-10-24T05:02:54Z

Dave yak is asleep on my bed as I write this. I worked all night and the sox won game one. Hooray for that and for ROME:Total War. The game that makes me stay up all night. I was at my dad's this weekend. My damn taillights need to come in soon or there is going to be an ass whooping. this is all for now. bye

What if....

2004-10-21T05:08:34Z

What if I died tonight? I wonder how people would react. I know a lot of people wouldn't care.

Why should I take your hand if you can't promise happy endings?

2004-10-05T03:54:05Z

I hope people are reading this now.
FUCK JUST ABOUT ALL OF YOU
fuck you for your bitching
fuck you for be inconsiderate
fuck you for being selfish
fuck me for being selfish
fuck you for making me work everyday
fuck you for making 2 of the same exact CD's and wasting my time
and fuck the rest of you for making worthless "musical" crap no one will buy
fuck you for forgeting me (I should be thankful for some)
fuck you for never being there
fuck this for being a journal
fuck me for not listening
fuck you for taking my spot, but still being cool
fuck you for not living with me anymore
fuck you for changing
fuck me for changing
fuck you for being a sore loser
fuck you for telling me I'm wrong (I was right)
Fuck you for saying that I'll never be anything.
fuck all of us for losing touch
fuck all of us for growing apart

Fuck you
Fuck me
Fuck him
Fuck her
Merry Christmas
Happy Chanukah

Your lost __(insert noun)__,
Ryan

Part 2:
Thank you for having almost the same schedual as me
Thank you for hanging out with me just about everyday
Thank you for paying attention to me when others say i'm wrong
^also thank you for helping me show them up
Thank you for talking to me
Thank you for sometimes acknowleging my existance sometimes
Thank you for being wrong
Thank you for not sucking

That might seem like a lot of people, but thats for only a couple of people.

No sleep for the weary????

2004-09-28T03:18:14Z

I'm so tired. I'm doing 41 hours of work this week and i have an awful sunburn. Its gonna look cool in senior pics. I hurt. No one is going to read this, and I dunno if I care. It keeps me busy.

One more thing....

2004-09-05T04:38:25Z

Dear Summer of 2004,
WTF man. What the hell did you do to me. Why?? I have no idea what the hell is happening. I'm wicked confused and tired of some shit. I can't wait to get the hell outta dodge, and outta this state. Maybe I'm over reacting right now, but what the fuck, man, what the fuck...

Yours truly,
Ryan

Work

2004-09-05T02:50:12Z

I dunno why sitting outside in a tent is so tiring but it is. I sat there for 8 hours. 2 people visited me which was cool. So the I went to Rob's with Iacono and we did nothing. Now I'm sitting here. I'm pathetic.

JC DAY!

2004-09-01T04:21:20Z

Today was cool. Gonna get my car fixed. I hung out with Jamie bc shes wicked cool. We had lunch and went off roading. Then I went to work. Passion of the Christ, Jesus Christ Superstar, Passion of the Jew and many others out on the same day! Amazing! but it was a cool day

Yup...

2004-08-30T01:07:39Z

Worked all day. Went to eat breakfast with Sam...That was nice. Now what?

OHH NOES!!!

2004-08-28T03:52:06Z

Yeah, today went by fast. Last day of band camp, we all acctually stayed the whole day. Then I went to work. Kevin went to the tweeter center without any of the stuff so i had to save the day by driving down to the tweeter center in record time to deliver the stuff. I told Kevin I haven't seen the raise yet and he put his head down and said "figures.....don't worry about it, I'll make the calls." So then I drove back to work bc Tom is a cool guy and gave me gas money. Then, uhhhhh....a normal night at work. I dunno. I uhhhhh, like cool people. My co-workers don't suck.

Forgotten Lyrics

2004-08-26T02:41:18Z

I was hoping to learn a few things, like........
Do you do you like dishing the dirt
On the whole class,
Talking the big smack,
Or playing the fool?
Wearing all of the latest fashions
Or bucking the new trends?
Wearing your old threads
Or if you like coffee in the evening.
These are a few things,
That I'd like to know;

I'm dying to know........
Do you, do you like dreaming
Of things so impossible?
Or only the practical,
Or ever the wild?
Waiting through all of your
Bad, bad days;
Just to end them
With someone you care about?
But do you like making out,
And long drives and brown eyes
And guys that just don't quite fit in?
"Do you like them?"
-Dashboard

everything i do and everything i say
they come in come conflict even as i sing this song today
and i know ive let you down
please know it's not your fault
because loving me has made me halfway decent by default
-Audio Karate

I can't ask for things to be still again
I can't ask for you to offer the world through your eyes
Longing for home again
But home is a feeling I've buried in you

I'm all right
I'm all right
It only hurts when I breathe
-Greenwheel

This is because I can spell confusion with a k
And I like it
It's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
It's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car
When the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant
-Something corp. (not really forgotten)

his heart pleads through the wounds that he bleeds
the wounds he never can close
wrong way mind in a haze
never know what he could do
he thinks ' I gave her my heart she tasted my soul
now she's gone again'
he thinks 'I gave her my heart she tasked my blood
now she's gone again'
why did you leave me here?
how could you lead me down here?
he can't decide where to go then
two promises one imperfect
-Sunny Day Real Estate

"You'd be crying if you had what we have" "Why? What'd ya have?" " No money!"

2004-08-24T04:20:37Z

Appetizers: $32
Steak: $38 (A Piece; or x6)
Sides: $30
Drinks & Coffee: $24
Dessert: $35

Only paying $50 for your share: Priceless
There are somethings in life people can't afford, For me and 5 guys, its called V.I.P.

other than the grill, my night was shit.

Plastic Smiles Miles Wide That Plastic Cups Will Leave Behind

2004-08-22T02:40:30Z

worked 8:30 am to 10:30 pm. Yes a 14 hour day. I dunno why ir t doesn't seem that long. It was soaking wet at the tweeter center tonight. And..........Well.......Thats about all that happened since I didn't see daylight.

Hey Babe, I'm the life of the party

2004-08-21T04:17:35Z

Warped tour was cool. I didn't get burned like I thought I did. I now beleive that everyone should own a vibrating cell phone, because I was so pissed that everyone was lost. Then we left after YC and went to Robs. Slept over Garys, Watched Monty Python. Went to work until 11:45. Tom is a cool dude. Then I came home to fight with my mother agian. I dunno what to do, all I know is i have to go back to work in 9 hours and i did not get my fucking raise. Now Chase is off to europe for like a month so I'm gonna see what Kevin can do for me, if anything. My life is the epitome of the phrase "Now what?". What fun.....

This blanket is freezing, Its been out in the hall......

2004-08-19T02:32:30Z

Hung out all day. Shot some stuff. Got really tired. Gotta drive to gillette tommorow for warped tour. I'm not looking forward to it bc I have $0. It'll still be fun. Well i should get some sleep. Long drive.

One more thing I forgot to mention...

2004-08-18T04:17:37Z

Song that makes you happy:	Some Postman - Pres. of the U.S.A.
Song that makes you want to cry:	Miles Apart - Yellowcard
Song that makes you feel dreamy:	Skies So Blue - The Rocket Summer
Song that makes you sleepy:	Eight of Nine - The Ataris
Song that makes you want to dance:	The First Single - The Format
Song that makes you want to close your ears:	Hotel California - William Hung
Song that makes you think of that special someone:	Konstantine - Something Corporate
Song that makes you feel relaxed:	Giant Steps - John Coltrane
Song that makes you feel inspired:	Hearts Bleeding - Monty's Fan Club
Song that makes you want to sing along::	Motown Never Sounded so Good - Less Than Jake

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